Wednesday, November 08, 2017

So hi! Hello there!

Hi there. I felt like it has been a long time since I have said hello to you, dear readers, or attempted to truly connect with you. Life has a way of blurring together the days and I found myself today longing to connect deeper here. In this space with you. It has been a while since I have taken the time to write out anything that doesn't consist of me chattering on about my children or that isn't a DIY or home project. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love all of those things (especially the kiddos), but today I am craving something a bit more. Connection. Community.

The other day I found myself sitting on the floor at Cineplex and had many opportunities to connect with strangers who were walking by. I have missed that. Being able to find something in common with someone and just chat about it. I think that is what I have missed most about working retail. When both parties find that connection. We don't know each other's names, or history, or even how our days are going, but in that moment we bond as friends. I love that. It is my hope that as I write about my children, art projects, crocheting or knitting, or even showing you our travel photos, that I am, in a way, creating a bond, a way that you and I can converse and share stories over similar experiences. I want nothing more than to continue growing and learning, and I love sharing and telling stories, and I would love for this place to reflect just that. I know that it can be weird to connect with someone online, we don't really know each other (or do we?), and I thought that perhaps, if I took a moment to introduce myself to you, maybe we can find more ways that we could connect on. I would love nothing more than to use this space for connection, community, love, growth, stories, crafts, friendship, family, and more.

So hi! Hello there!

- My name is Emily. Ruth. Emily Ruth. My mother named me after both a song and a dragon. I don't have any talent for music, but I have a love for it, and I am pretty positive that I was destined to love fairy-tales, fantasy, dragons, and whimsy as soon as my mom named me Ruth. Bonus points if you know the author who created and penned Ruth.

- I am a wife of eight years to the love of my life and a Mommy of two - Bug (short for Lovebug) and Birdie (no, these are not their real names). You will often see their body parts around this space.

- I have been told that I am a dreamer. I used to take offence to this label, but you know what, its completely accurate. I am a dreamer. You will find me lost in thoughts more often than not. You will find me dreaming of traveling, of owning an acreage, of getting lost in forests, and of making this blog even better. I also dream of writing a book. I sometimes dream up too much too fast that the thought of even making anything a reality becomes overwhelming.

- I am a sponge. I often get caught up in other people's emotions. Whether that is sadness, joy, or excitement (I usually don't get caught up with anger) I tend to soak up what other people are feeling very easy. If someone is excited by something, I want and am excited by it too. If you are sad, I will be sad too. I feel emotions deep, and sometimes it takes a while for me to shake them off.

- I would rather have an "awkward" conversation of how I have upset someone than never know what I have done to offend. I have had many experiences where things were left unmentioned too long that they boiled out of control. That is one of my biggest fears, that I will never be given a chance to explain myself or to see where I went wrong or try and fix a situation. I never mean to upset or offend.

- On the note of fears, I am continually working on both my anxiety and my fear! Some days are harder than others, but I am learning to pray more, to listen to His voice, not my own, and I am learning to cast all of my fears aside. Its a battle, but its one I am going to win. Thank you, Jesus!

- I have learned recently that my biggest life goal is to create a place where people can come over and feel at home, especially children. Growing up I had a home away from home like that. There was a house in my small community that all the kids would go. We would hang out and play and sometimes we were even given chores. I loved that feeling. I felt like I was part of the community and it easily became a safe place to go outside of my own home. I want my own home to reflect that now. I want children to feel like they can come over anytime, any day and know that I am here for them. I want to be their Aunty Em.

- I often crave and long to be surrounded in nature! And when I don't get the chance to be immersed in it, I tend to get kind of gloomy. I really love flowers and plants.

- I have a vivid imagination. Its a good and bad thing. I enjoy reading and writing stories for this reason. I love playing with my three-year old because I can definitely see the world that she sees. However, I often create problems and arguments (internally) and start worrying about things that don't exist. I appreciate my husband for that, he can bring me back down to earth by asking a couple of questions.

haha, wow.

I think I have forgotten how much joy I get when I write out my thoughts. I definitely want to do this more often and I honestly hope you have enjoyed reading it. I hope that by learning a little more about me that we can create a foundation for connection. I want this blog to be a true outlet of my life. I will talk about my kids, share photos of our experiences, you will see glimpses of my daily life. But I also need to remember how much joy I get when I write. I want to get over my "they will never read that" fear and just be open, sort out those thoughts and write. I want to build up camaraderie over more than just craft projects - don't worry, there will still be lots of craft projects, that is a true love of mine. I ultimately want this to be a true Be Emily space but I also want this space to be a place where we can connect. I would love to make a difference in someones life even if just for a minute. I want to make people laugh, inspire them with a project, feed their curiosities by how we live our lives or if we travel, feed their curiosities about that.  I want to connect deeper here. So this is where I choose to start.

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