Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Journal Day #5 - On Challenges

We all encounter challenges on a daily basis. You may consider yours something small, like having enough time in the day to accomplish everything you set out to do, or it may be a bit bigger- perhaps something you have to overcome mentally or emotionally, or even a struggle when dealing with a difficult person. Whatever the case, take a look at your daily life- what would you say is your biggest challenge? Or if you have a past struggle you were able to overcome, how did you do it? This week, write about a challenge you currently deal with on a day to day basis, or discuss one you managed to get past. from Sometimes Sweet

What a good prompt this week. I was just chatting with a friend how I really need more time in my day. I feel like I have way too many goals and dreams that I would like to accomplish in one day. Hanging out with my daughter, cleaning the house, working out, knitting projects, blogging, writing, and of course reading. When I don't get those things done, even though they are personal goals and not (usually) ones with deadlines, I feel overwhelmed. Or bad. Guilty even.

I have started to feel like I need a really good schedule in place. Example: Reading, bathroom cleaning, and arm workout on Monday. Writing, vacuuming, going on a walk with my Daughter on Tuesday. You get the idea. But with that thought, I also feel restricted to think that I can only write on Tuesday even though I may have a really good thought come to me on Wednesday. Finding the balance. How to fit everything that I absolutely love without getting to the point where I want to kill myself. Not literal death, figuratively. I could just so easily give up on everything that makes me happy and focus on just being a mom and a housewife. I know that won't make me happy, it would definitely be easier though! How do I fit all my hearts joys in?

Another issue that I struggle with day to day is the whole working out thing. Now don't get me wrong, I love when I am in the middle of a workout, beating my precious records, sweating it out, getting into that Zone. I love looking the mirror and seeing the results of my hard labour. Even though I love all these things, and even though I remind myself every day about all of these things, the process of actually putting on my running shoes, or workout clothes, is turtle, turtle slow. I mean really slow. So slow that to an outsider looking in, they would assume that I am not even going to workout that day. Sometimes I even tell myself that it is okay if I don't work out today. I don't need it. Then I start to feel the need to get to the point, where at the end of my workout I am so satisfied ... the need to be satisfied with myself! Even when I start the workout, I have the thought how as long as I am doing something, the need to go strong and best myself is not necessary.

These things are the challenges that I face on a day to day basis.

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