Monday, March 11, 2013

the Now Project Vol. 3

Vol. 3 - Time

Time. A friend & a nemesis.

There are moments that take forever and there are moments that flash by.
Time goes by too fast. Life is a flash. I am almost twenty-three and have been married for almost four years. I can still remember being a little girl playing with my barbie dolls. Where did time go? Where did that little girl go? What have I been up to since those barbie doll days?

Then there are days or hours or minutes that seem like a lifetime. Whether at work or during a workout session there are times that I wish the day was over. Why? Working out is hard, and lets face it, I am lazy. I want time to travel by so fast during these moments. Even when nobody comes into my store, its slow, everything I was supposed to do has been completed, I am bored. I want the day to end. Especially when I dream of the future. Of being a mom. Having my own home. Life is going by way too slow and it feels like those days will never come.

My name is Emily and I am addicted to wishing my life away.

Obviously there are quotes above doing what you can today so that you don't have to do it tomorrow. Today is a gift that is why they call it the present. I should be taking the time to do the little things in life that most people (including myself already) look back and wish they had done those things. But even though I know that today matters, looking towards the future is more of a lazy "one day i will have ..." way of fixing in the moment frusterations. Frustrated about working out? It's okay One day I will have a six pack. Frustrated about life? It's okay. One day it will be better. Easy fix. Just dream about the life you wish you were having.

Time needs to become more of a friend to me than an enemy. I need to make more of an effort to seize the moments. To make every moment count.

To working out, yes one day I will have a six pack, but today I am going to go the best that I can to make myself healthy. To my home, yes, one day I will have my own home, but for now I am going to tidy it up, appreciate what I have, and always improve the coziness of it. To my life, yes you may be crazy and the future uncertain, but my life is good and I must fill it with happy thoughts, goals, crafts and life.

As a lazy person I look at what I have written above and mutter to myself "one day..." No. Today. Today is the day that I will start taking my days seriously and not for granted. I will not laze about where there is a house to clean or a workout to sweat out. I will write when I need too, read when I can and craft when I must. Television will not be my stress reliever and I will not hide in my bath tub every single night. Today is the day.

Callenge number three. To create a schedule of my every day. Its amazing how many hours slip by my fingers because I have slept in or watched television. No wonder I panic about all the things I have to do in a day. Its the reason why I don't write as many letters, make more phone calls, visit more people. My life is centered around entertainment and laziness that it is going to end up stealing all my time away.

Who am I? Who do I want to be?  What do I need to change to be the person that I want to be? What new habits do I need to form? What do I need to change? I won't sleep in as long. I won't play that really addictive game on my telephone. I won't watch hours of endless TV. I won't avoid my friends and family.

Today, I promise, is the first step on making my day really count. No more laziness. I am choosing this moment to be an energetic, creative, get the job done, individual. No more sulking. Tut. Tut.

Will you join me? In creating a schedule for yourself that you will follow daily? No buts or whatifs? In creating moments that WILL lead to an end goal?

Dreaming about something is okay but not if its the everything. You have the power to be what your heart wants you to be. You do. I do. I just have to make it a priority. I have to make a choice. Make moments that count a must do not a maybe.

Mistakes will occur and schedules that work for one person will not work for the next. But I believe that I can get out of this rut of life and be who I want to be for once and for all. Its all about the journey, not the destination. Are you happy with your every day life? Are you making it towards any of your end goals? Its time to make Time a friend. To enjoy every moment. To make our every moment count and to become who we want to be.

Who is with me?

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