Monday, March 04, 2013

Creating to Survive

Writing. Dreaming. Writing. Imagining. Creating. Exploring. Thinking. Using a Dictionary. Breathing. Breathing. Imagining. Dreaming. Writing. Creating. Wishing. Playing. Working. Eating. Sleeping. Working. Sleeping. Visiting. Knitting. Reading. Thinking. Cleaning. Relaxing. Meditating. Thinking. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

My brain has been analyzing, imagining, creating, dreaming ideas up and I am finding that there is too little of time to see all my ideas through to the end. It is so very frustrating. I feel like I am failing a little bit when I cannot see everything that I have thought of completed. But my brain keeps going. One idea leads to another which leads to another and another. My brain doesn't know when to stop, when to relax, when to focus on one idea. It just keeps going. And going. And going. I write my ideas down, but I have to keep adding to the list while in the meantime nothing is getting accomplished.

Do I focus on knitting? Creating pieces of yarn crafts for others? Do I focus on writing? Get the five book ideas that are swarming in my head out on paper? Do I focus on cleaning my house? Being a good wife and hostess to others? Do I focus on being a good friend? Visiting, playing and enjoying another persons company? Do I focus on myself? Have the bubble baths that I love, do my nails, eat better, workout harder? Do I focus on God? Be the best that I can be with the Creator that I love? The question I am really facing is how can I do all of the above? ALL OF THE ABOVE. Not just some. Every single thing is a part of me and I feel like if I let any of them go, then I will be losing myself a bit. I know it may sound silly, but I am serious about this. How can I accomplish all that I need to accomplish in a day? Do I just need to have a schedule for myself? Have hour limitations to my art? Do I need to have a new hobby every week? Do I need to get rid of television and reading and sleeping in order to get everything accomplished? I want to fit everything in. I don't want to overwhelm myself. I want to write. dream. create. inspire. imagine. explore. I need too. I need to be creative. I need to create. To do everything. I just need to refocus. Adjust some priorities, maybe? Focus. Never waver?

Life isn't about finding yourself. Its about creating yourself. - George Bernard Shaw

I need to create to survive. But can I survive all the things I need to create?



  1. Yes. You focus on them all but not all at one time. You learn a few until they become habit...then the next ones. Proverbs 31 woman does it all...but she has been working for years to be able to do what she does.

    I'm just starting to figure these things out myself. I'm so proud of you for thinking about it now.

    Also, in your March 12 post, you talk about a schedule. Might want to schedule this stuff in. Learning and doing time.

    Just my thoughts. I love you!

  2. I thought about creating a schedule for myself after I wrote this post. It is amazing to me how many hours can simply pass by without realizing it.

    I definitely want to be a Proverbs 31 woman. So much. Thanks for your thoughts. I love your thoughts. I love you.