Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Looking Back to 2012 - The Now Project Vol. 1

I just wanted to share a few article pieces I wrote back in 2012 on my old blog the Valuable Sparrow. I was working on a series called 'the Now Project.' I love this series. It is something so close to my heart and everytime I read my words, I agree with them again & again. They are real and they are true. Even though I wrote these words January 2012 they still apply today. They are so applicable to everyone's lives. They work. And even though the date may be different, our bucket list is different, we can still change our lives. This is a great daily reminder and I wanted to share it with you.

I love this project. I was unable to finish it in 2012 and it is my hope to finish it in 2013. Heres to us.

The Now Project. Vol. 1.

Realizing I Can Change.
2013. January. A chance to have a fresh start. A new year. This year can be anything you want it to be.

I have just recently strayed away from my comfort zone. I have been doing it for a while thanks to all my friends who have entered into my life and have encouraged me to do what I want to do instead of waiting for it to happen. I never used to be like this. I love my comfort zone. Loved. I loved it so much that for years I was simply ... waiting.

Waiting for things to change. Waiting for things to happen. Waiting. Waiting for myself to finally be happy and be who I have wanted to be (that mental picture I had inside of my head I wanted so badly to come true.) Dreaming of the person I could have been. What I could have done in school. What I could have done when I was younger. Dreaming of losing 20 pounds overnight. Being a famous author. Or musician. Pretending like those things were real. And then waking up to reality and being sad that my dreams are not true. So again I would wait or pretend. This was my life. Then the years would go by and I would kick myself for wasting so much time on waiting and pretending that I would again dream about what I could have been and where I could be right now if I hadn't waited in the first place.

A spiral. Of unhappiness & dispair. No one likes dreaming of something good only to find out that you are far from it.

Moving out was a huge step for me. Getting out in the 'real' world. I got married. Moved to a different city and was thrust into an ever changing, faced pace schedule. It is still easy for me to go back to that place of dreaming and waiting. Waiting to have kids. For the Hub to be finished school. Waiting to finally have our own place so we can paint walls. Waiting to be a professional photographer and children's author. Waiting.

But there is one thing I do know now. I have today. Today is all I need to focus on. I know that so many people have told me not to worry about tomorrow and just focus on today. It never stuck with me. Because I was dreaming of tomorrow. Of a new tomorrow. Of a tomorrow where I will be extremely happy.

I need to focus on today. Today makes tomorrow. Today is January 10, 2013. There will only be one January 10, 2013. There is no second chance at repeating this day again. No matter how many times you wish for it (I know, I have tried). So why not make the absolute best of it?

This challenge is for myself, but I am posting it on here just in case there is anyone out there who is also in a position that I was and still sometimes am. Are you waiting? Waiting for something to happen? Or dreaming of another reality?

I don't want to wake up in five years thinking to myself, 'what the heck did I do in 2013?' Or I don't want it to become a year of waiting. Another year just like the rest. I want 2013 to be THE year. The BEST year of my life. When I tell my grandkids or even my future kids about my life, I want 2013 to be the greatest one of all. With stories of courage, creativity, love and hope. If I want to succeed in life and have my dreams come true, then I need to live my life and allow myself to make my dreams become a reality.


So no more waiting for the Hub to finish school, to move to our final destination, to be stronger, healthier or have children before I can start being happy. Today is the day. This year is the year. I am going to be more creative, I am going to work hard to get my body in shape, I am going to have a great marriage, great friendships AND I am going to stop being afraid to do what I want to do.

I want to encourage you, dear reader. If you feel like your dreams are too far away, or if you feel stuck, try and break free. I cannot express enough that you can change your life so that you can be happy. Get out of the despair spiral. Get out. Do what makes you happy. Live life. Don't regret life. Don't pray or hope or wait for something to happen to make you happier. Make it happen.

Be creative. Be silly. Be daring. Be bold. Be happy. Dare to be happy. Be courageous. Be. Be all that you can be. Now. Today. Get up and be happy. Live. Live today.

Here are a few questions to focus on.
What made you the happiest in the last few years? Do you miss it? Why don't you allow yourself that joy anymore? Have you made yourself a bucket list? Have you stopped working towards something you love or working towards your dreams? Why? What is your road-block?

I have a bucket list. But it was more of a 'one day ....' list. Not now. I am going to work towards accomplishing my list. I am going to learn sign-language, work on my photography, take care of myself, be closer to my friends & family and I am going to get my silly drivers license. This is the day. Start accomplishing the goals. Maybe I should try and accomplish one thing on my bucket list a month? Its possible.As long as we can move and breathe, our goals and dreams, our happiness CAN come and remain in our daily lives.

Don't let fear, unhappiness, self-doubt, others, or anything else stand in your way for living for today and building your life towards the dreams that God has given you. Don't wait. Don't wait for 2013 to come. Or February or tomorrow. Trust me: if you don't start acting today, it won't happen tomorrow. It's like exercise. I can definitely always say that I will do it tomorrow, because today I will be unburdened. But then in a week I will be in the exact same position only sad, because my goals and visions are not being meant due to my lazy self. Sigh.

So if you feel stuck today, I have a little challenge for you. Create a bucket list. And when you are finished with that, I want you to choose one thing on your list that you can start doing today. I have a friend who knows sign language and I am going to start working on it TODAY. If you are not sure where to start then ask someone to help you. Thats why there is a community out there, to helps us grow. I am sincerely thankful for all my friends & family (you know who you are) who have pushed me and stretched me into the person I am now. I need you all. Always and forever.

We can be anything we want to be. We just need the guts and motivation to get our butts in gear. Here is my motivation speech: Just do it. ha. But in all seriousness, thats all we need to do. Get our minds in gear and just do it.

Be who you want to be. Be it right now.

Welcome to my Now Project.

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